YESTERDAY, I went to church... just when I thought I was doing good the devil was waiting for me at home. MY "DAD." If that's what you want to call it. He likes to pick a fight over ANYTHiNG. He started an argument over the TV, all I did was ask my mother if she wanted to watch a movie later on and he said "WE NOT WATCHiNG THAT!" all mean and I told him I wasn't asking him I was asking her and the movie don't even come on til' 5 hours after his movie is on. Then he said I GOT TO RESPECT HIM AND THAT'S DISRESPECTFUL I said for what, asking my mother a question. He said "If you don't like it you can move out my house I pay the bills around here." He's so stupid gets mad over anything. Then he's going to say "I don't care if I never see your baby." and I'll never ever ever forgive him for saying that and I'll never ever ever forgive my mother for not standing up to him and letting him know that he's wrong. He thinks he's better than everyone, Then he started laughing while I started yelling at him as if it's funny to upset a pregnant woman. I threw the remote control on the couch and he was worried about the remote control. He care more about the remote than his own grandchild. My dad is nothing. Just a jealous ass man. I can't stand him and NO I DON'T LOVE HiM! I wouldn't call him a "DAD" he doesn't love me just the man who pays for bills like he always remind us of what he do. I CAN'T WAIT TIL I FIND A NEW BOYFRiEND SO I CAN MOVE OUT HIS HOUSE AND NEVER HAVE TO SEE HIM AGAIN. I HATE MY DAD. It's sad, but true.
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I felt the same way about my step-pops. He use to have something to say about everything. My mom would just sit there everytime and not say anything. I hated him so much it wasn't even funny.
He use to tell me that all I'm ever going to be in life is a stripper. I had the lowest self-esteem growing up.
But then I learned to ignore his ass. That annoyed him so bad it was too funny.
I think he fed off of getting under my skin and when I took that away from him, it made him weak.
I also prayed alot.
I asked God to forgive me for hating someone so much and I asked for strength.
It takes time and patience, but God always comes thru.
So keep your head up and don't let him get to you. Ignore him. When he picks a fight, let him argue w/ hisself. When he says some smart sh!t trying to be funny, laugh.
But remember to continue to pray.
You don't need to be stressed.
Your baby's health is very important.
Wow, Honey. I'm sorry you feel this way. I am also sorry that your dad is that way. A man should never be like that to his own flesh and blood.
I hope you get some solace soon.
@crys.c: Thanks for the advice, I actually tried to do that for a while. I guess I didn't try hard enough. Now I don't have anything to say to either of my parents.
@Jewells: Thanks, you know I didn't even know the definition of solace, I took the liberty of looking it up.
SOLACE: Comfort in grief; alleviation of grief or anxiety; also, that which relieves in distress; that which cheers or consoles; relief.
Rest; relaxation; ease.
To cheer in grief or under calamity; to comfort; to relieve in affliction, solitude, or discomfort; to console; -- applied to persons; as, to solace one with the hope of future reward.
To allay; to assuage; to soothe; as, to solace grief.
To take comfort; to be cheered.
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Sounds good to me, I hope I do get some solace.
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Hello Honey..coming by to check you out...aw man boo..I feel your pain. It sucks when people think they have control over you. Your dad basically has just realized that he doesn't have anymore control over you. You are a woman now..and maybe he is dealing with that the best way he can.
It's still no excuse for his behavior though. And he really needs to open his eyes to the way he is behaving. It's not cool...and most likely he will come to his senses anyway.
And when he sees that baby..it will all change..
and please don't look to a boyfriend to take you away from your pain..do it yourself..because trust me..because I know better than anything..how it feels to have someone think they control you..you don't want to go from under one "daddys" roof to another..
N thanks lil mami for addin me to your roll..one of my homies hooked mine up..so I don't really know how..but I'ma try to put you on mine..
HUGS
KISSES&
KINDness
@Foia: You're quite right. I shouldn't look to a boyfriend to solve my problems, if anything I need to look to God. I use to look to my EX... we were together 2 years and that didn't last. I need to look to God for guidance and become a better person.
@yasmeen: Thanks for the love hun, Right back at you *MWUAh* :)
yeah, i sometimes said the same about my father. hate , i later realized, is such a strong word. i dont think i hate him parse..just the way he acts & the things he does. deep down i know he's a good person its just his attitude makes ppl turn against him. your father will one day realize what an asshole he is, and trust me-he will regret it the rest of his days.
@Mara: I don't wish bad luck upon him. I hope he changes.
I feel your pain, I have went through some of the same situations with my mom, stepdad and my biological dad....I have been choked, cursed out,all types of ish, just know that all things work out according to God's will, and I agree that you shouldnt hold on to the desire to have a boyfriend to take you away from your problems that is up to you and your faith in God, when you get away from your father do it on your own terms, cuz living with a man is like getting out of the frying pan and into the fire especially at your age and with your situation, but just learn to ignore your father as best you can
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