TODAY iS SUNDAY!!!

I went to church this morning. I love to go to church, I guess you could say growing up I was a church girl... strayed away and found my way back in the church :) When I wasn't in church, started hanging out with the wrong crowd that's when all my problems started. I'm back, and that's all that matters. Today, a couple of old friends from the church was there. Old friends I use to hang out with when I wasn't in church. Trey, Andy and Daeshuan. They are all my ex-boyfriend's cousins... it was awkward seeing them there, and especially Daeshuan, I'm not too fond of him because he tried to rape me when my ex wasn't around. Seeing them reminded me that I'm glad I don't have to hang out with them no more, go down the same streets, and do the things I use to do. I feel like I've matured in the Lord, and I've come too far too look back. I feel like that old song, "If anybody ask you, what's the matter with me... just tell them I'm SAVED, SANTiFiED, I've got the holy ghost spirit and I've been baptized, and I've got Jesus on my side, I'm running for my life." I feel that sometimes, you just have to go through something and it'll make you appreciate God even more. I know God keeps on doing great things for me, there's times when I should of and could of been dead but I was saved by God's mercy and grace.

BiG NEWS... I went to the doctor this morning

It's a BOY!

I went to the doctor this morning. I'm having a boy! I have a son! I love the sound of that! My son, I'm a name him Jazion. (Pronounced Jah-Zee-On) I'm so happy! Now I'm a have to buy boy stuff for my son! I'm so excited! I love my son so much!

This morning I went to the doctor

I went to the doctor this morning, I thought I was going to get another sonagram so I can find out if I'm having a boy or girl... the doctor doesn't do sonagrams on wednesdays so I'm going back this friday in a couple of days. I got a checkup and my blood work is just fine! I thank GOD for that :D It doesn't even matter to me if I have a boy or girl, I just want a happy healthy baby.
Also today my lil' 3 year old twin cousins Michael & Wesely came over. They're spending the night. They're so cute, and I'm not just saying it because they look just like me lol. They're such bright wonderful children, very smart for their age!

CLASS WAS COOL!

Today I went to my breast feeding class at the WIC office. I learned why breast milk is more healthy than formula milk. They gave me lots of free stuff at the WIC office, baby magazines, pamphlets, and I bought a cute little green blanket for my baby with the MOMMY DOLLARS they gave me. I'm going to be attending a breast feeding class for African Americans every 2nd and 3rd wednesday of the month.

The Difference Between Breast Milk & Formula Milk

• Formula milk is not as nutritious as breast milk.
• Formula milk has water, protein, carbohydrates, fats, vitamins and minerals
• Breast milk has more
• Breast milk has water, protein, carbohydrates, fats, vitamins, minerals, Enzymes, Growth Factors, Hormones, Antibacterial factors, Antiviral factors, Anti parasitic factors, Anti allergenic factors, Anti allergenic properties.
  
• Formula milk is no match for breast milk!

The class was very educating! I can't wait to go again to the WIC(women, infants, & children) class. I go to the doctor in a couple of days. I'm going to get to see my baby again on the screen! I'm a be 5 months. I'm a find out if I'm having a boy or girl :D

I wish I didn't love you anymore

By: De Anna Adkins (me)
this poem is dedicated to my ex-boyfriend.

I wish I didn't love you anymore,
But you stay on my mind.

I wish I didn't love you anymore

Yet, you're the one who screwed up
So why do I feel guilty all the time?

I wish I didn't love you anymore

You took my heart and stomped
on it in my face.

I wish I didn't love you anymore

You found me quite easy to replace.

I wish I didn't love you anymore

I miss those beautiful days and long
nights we shared.

I wish I didn't love you anymore

Yet, I still care....

HAPPY BiRTHDAY/ANNiVERSARY :D

YESTERDAY July 18th was my grandmother Pinky's birthday. R.IP Grandma. Yesterday was also my parent's 16th anniversary! (16 years is quite a while.) Then my dad got mad at my mom because she chose to stay up all night and watch movies with me. (Evil man I know) He didn't even want to take her anywhere today. Then he wants to go to my mom's friends BBQ and he's not even invited :D No one wants him to go... (I'm still not too fond of my dad.) God is my father now :) They went out to eat yesterday, then later that day they brought me and my brother back some In & Out Burger... I'm eating for 2 now so you know I had extra fries.

I'm so Creative

Today I hooked up my Mommy's blogspot page. It looks terrific if I do say so myself. I did a precious moments theme for her. She and I both like precious moments. Check out my Mommy's blogspot page by clicking the link below.
http://lifespitfalls-snooks.blogspot.com

Today was also my neice LaBrittany's birthday. She's a year younger than me. My older sister's daughter. She turned 16 today. She lives in Louisianna. I called her, and wished her a happy birthday.

THE CHECK TURNED OUT TO BE A SCAM

The people at the bank said that the check is a scam so they can get money out of my dad's name, when my dad called the guy who sent it, he said it's not a scam and he'll call back in a few days. uHhHhHh... I don't know. It did sound too good to be true. I'm not tripping though. Today was an okay day. No arguing or anything. I'm just trying to find some solace in my life. DRAMA FREE! Like Mary J. said "NO MORE DRAMA iN MY LiFE" lol.

THERE'S POWER iN THE NAME OF JESUS!

I came across this and found it quite interesting.It is written in the Bible (Galatians 6:7):
'Be not deceived; God is not mocked:for whatsoever a man sow,that shall he also reap.'

Here are some men and women who mocked God :John Lennon (Singer):Some years before, during his interview with an American Magazine, he said: 'Christianity will end, it will disappear. I do not have to argue about that. I am certain. Jesus was OK, but his subjects were too simple, today we are more famous than Him' (1966). Lennon, after saying that the Beatles were more famous than Jesus Christ, was shot six times.

Tancredo Neves (President of Brazil):During the Presidential campaign, he said if he got 500,000 votes from his party, not even God would remove him from Presidency. Sure he got the votes, but he got sick a day before being made President, then he died.

Cazuza (Brazilian composer, singer and poet):During A show in Canecio (Rio de Janeiro), while smoking his cigarette, he puffed out some smoke into the air and said: 'God, that's for you.' He died at the age of 32 of LUNG CANCER in a horrible manner.

The man who built the Titanic After the construction of Titanic, a reporter asked him how safe the Titanic would be. With an ironic tone he said: 'Not even God can sink it.' The result: I think you all know what happened to the Titanic.

Marilyn Monroe (Actress)She was visited by Billy Graham during a presentation of a show. He said the Spirit of God had sent him to preach to her. After hearing what the Preacher had to say, she said: 'I don't need your Jesus'. A week later, she was found dead in her apartment.

Bon Scott (Singer)The ex-vocalist of the AC/DC. On one of his 1979 songs he sang: 'Don't stop me; I'm going down all the way, down the highway to hell.' On the 19th of February 1980, Bon Scott was found dead, he had been choked by his own vomit.

Campinas (year 2005)In Campinas , Brazil a group of friends, drunk, went to pick up a friend. The mother accompanied her to the car and was so worried about the drunkenness of her friends and she said to the daughter holding her hand, who was already seated in the car: 'My Daughter, Go With God And May He Protect You.' She responded: 'Only If He (God) Travels In The Trunk, Cause Inside Here.....It's Already Full.' Hours later, news came by that they had been involved in a fatal accident, everyone had died, the car could not be recognized what type of car it had been, but surprisingly, the trunk was intact. The police said there was no way the trunk could have remained intact. To their surprise, inside the trunk was a crate of eggs, none was broken.

Christine Hewitt (Jamaican Journalist and entertainer) said the Bible (Word of God) was the worst book ever written. In June 2006 she was found burnt beyond recognition in her motor vehicle.

Tupac Shakur (rapper/actor)appeared in Crucifixion upon an upcoming album cover. He was shot four times and died a couple months before the album hit stores.

Many more important people have forgotten that there is no other name that was given so much authority as the name of Jesus. Many have died, but only Jesus died and rose again, and he is still alive...Jesus.Jesus said, 'If you are embarrassed about me, I will also be embarrassed about you before my father.'

GOD iS GOOD!!!

"He may not come when you want him, but he'll be there right on time."

This morning I asked God to forgive me of all the evil thoughts I was thinking towards my father. 2 wrongs don't make it right. I realized that I DON'T HATE MY DAD. I LOVE HiM AND MY MOTHER, I just don't like some of the things he does sometimes. With prayer, it may all change. My father appoligized to me this morning. GUESS WHAT? My dad told me he won $120,000. His name was picked in a drawing. We're going to move into a bigger house! He said I can buy my baby anything I want! Just when everything seemed all bad, good news comes my way. I'm a believer and I for one can say that GOD IS GOOD! He may not come when you want him, but he'll be there right on time! I can't let things get me down, I have to keep moving on. I'm trying to become a better person, not just for me... but for my beloved baby. For those of you who commented my previous post below, I highly appreciate it. Thanks for your input.

MY DAD iS EViL; I DESPiZE HIM

YESTERDAY, I went to church... just when I thought I was doing good the devil was waiting for me at home. MY "DAD." If that's what you want to call it. He likes to pick a fight over ANYTHiNG. He started an argument over the TV, all I did was ask my mother if she wanted to watch a movie later on and he said "WE NOT WATCHiNG THAT!" all mean and I told him I wasn't asking him I was asking her and the movie don't even come on til' 5 hours after his movie is on. Then he said I GOT TO RESPECT HIM AND THAT'S DISRESPECTFUL I said for what, asking my mother a question. He said "If you don't like it you can move out my house I pay the bills around here." He's so stupid gets mad over anything. Then he's going to say "I don't care if I never see your baby." and I'll never ever ever forgive him for saying that and I'll never ever ever forgive my mother for not standing up to him and letting him know that he's wrong. He thinks he's better than everyone, Then he started laughing while I started yelling at him as if it's funny to upset a pregnant woman. I threw the remote control on the couch and he was worried about the remote control. He care more about the remote than his own grandchild. My dad is nothing. Just a jealous ass man. I can't stand him and NO I DON'T LOVE HiM! I wouldn't call him a "DAD" he doesn't love me just the man who pays for bills like he always remind us of what he do. I CAN'T WAIT TIL I FIND A NEW BOYFRiEND SO I CAN MOVE OUT HIS HOUSE AND NEVER HAVE TO SEE HIM AGAIN. I HATE MY DAD. It's sad, but true.

TODAY WAS JUST A TYPiCAL DAY

Today I went shopping at the mall. I bought a pretty red shirt and some red heels. I absolutely love fashion! I'm such a shopaholic. I love to shop. I'm such a fashionista. I know how to make people look good, I should become an image consultant lol. They tell people what to do, how to dress. I can work miricles on people. uHhhh... I need to buy some more nailpolish, probably covergirls. I'm going to get that later on. It was so hot outside today! I got a nice cool smoothie to drink at the mall. I'm going to go to church tomorrow morning. I haven't been there in a couple of sundays. I need to go more often. I'm a start going back to church regularly again. I've been so sleepy lately since I'm pregnant, but that's no excuse to miss church. I think sometime this month there's going to be a youth conference. I want to go. I'm a see if my cousins are going too. Maybe I can catch a ride with them.

LAST NiGHT I WAS WATCHiNG THE GREAT DEBATERS....
It wasn't my first time watching that movie, it was my second. I ordered it On Demand. I remember the first time I saw The Great Debaters, it was the first day it came out in theaters on Christmas Day. I loved it then and I still do. It's such a powerful movie, highly inspirational. It makes you want to challenge yourself to do better. I'm striving to do better in my life, I'm homeschooled... still doing all my work and I want to take some extra courses. It'll look good on my college application.

I've Been Thinking About Baby Names

I've got a couple of baby names in mind. I don't know my baby's gender yet. I won't know until I go back to the doctor on the 23rd. If I have a boy I'm a name him Jazion after my ex (pronounced JAH-ZEE-ON) That's a great name. I'm really feeling it. If I have a girl I'm going to name her Cheyenne(it's a beautiful indian name, that'd be a perfect name since I'm indian). I'm just too excited, when I find out what I'm having I'm going shopping. I'm going to buy some clothes for my baby, little toys and stuff for my baby's room. I have ultrasound photos I stare at over and over. From what i can see, my baby resembles me.

TONiGHT

My friend Mara helped me with my page and made me a beautiful header. She's pretty cool. I will now be writing in style :)

MORNiNG SiCKNESS iS NO JOKE!

I threw up six times this morning. My mom says I may be having a boy because of all of the morning sickness that I'm having and because I'm carrying low. I don't know, but we'll find out when I go to the doctor on the 23rd. I also have a breast feeding class to attend on the 21st. LOLz... well one of the ups about being pregnant is that your breasts get bigger. My breasts went from a size C to a size D LOL. I'm excited about my baby, I love my baby already.

I'M SUCH A SPLiT PERSONALiTY...

They say that I'm such a split personality, but that's what they love about me! Sometimes I'm quiet, but when I'm quiet I take time to listen and observe the world around me. Other times, I'm outgoing and spontaneous. I've been through so much for someone to be so young. I guess it affects how I act. I guess you could say that I'm lukewarm because sometimes I'm hot, other times I'm quite cold. Life has never been easy for me, my dad never really cared about me. All he did was buy me nice fancy things. He says he cares about me, but I never really felt it. The only man who cared about me is no longer in my life. He was my bestfriend, my ex-boyfriend Jay Jay. It hurt me at first, then I got use to being alone. We use to go everywhere & do everything together. We were together two years. We were so close, I knew where he was without him ever telling me or all I have to do is think about him and then he'd call. We were inseparable. He promised we'd be together forever but forever came and went I guess. I didn't know what I was going to do without him at first when we broke up, but then I realized There was nothing I can do but BREATHE and MOVE ON. Maybe the break up was for the better. I'm doing better without him than I was when I was with him. We don't call or talk to each other no more because I don't want to. It's too hard and awkward. Even when I see him I don't say anything to him. As far as I'm concerened Jay Jay is dead to me, and can someone please tell me how to talk to a ghost? That's how I feel. I feel that's he's gone and there's nothing between us but memories. Now my focus is on my baby and starting a new life, one that I can be proud of. JUST ME & MY BABY... JUST THE TWO US. I have someone to love who loves me. It's going to be BEAUTiFUL.